Hello summer lovers!

Hello everyone. My goodness, what a long time it has been since I last wrote something with substance and life here. I don't know where I went. It seems like I went on a little journey, away from the things that cause me to question the ground I stand on. Of course I was still living, and enjoying summer, and the beautiful sunshine. But I think I lost my desire to be patient, and accepting for a while.

This summer I have worked a lot, and truthfully I think I have exhausted my current job. I have been working there over 2 years, and I am honestly shocked I have been able to manage it for this long. It is just too repetitive, impersonal, and emotionally taxing. Unfortunately I can not leave, and I have numerous reasons why. I just really need to have a job at this point in my life. I need an income, I need to be paid as well as possible, and with my hectic schedule...I need to be on a union. Haha So, I will be there for a while.

After perhaps the hardest, and worst year of my life...having some time to waste has been nice. I have had time to see people, sleep, draw, explore, and do lots of other wonderful things.

However...during the summer I really realize how important it is for me to have some sort of a schedule. Even though I am disorganized, and usually my life is falling apart to some degree, with a schedule I am reminded of the important things in my life. And maybe even the things I should learn to let go of.

A couple weeks ago I was having a hard time with people. I was fed up with people lying, and holding onto things that they cant commit to. I was in need of a little stability, and love I guess. But, like most things, it passed as time went on. I am still living, and able to write to you now. I think I had a hardcore writers block. I honestly couldn't write, and after a while I didn't even want to.

I am feeling a little bit scattered with my thoughts right now. But I am pleased with this post.

I hope you all are having a wonderful summer. It is soon to come to an end, but there is still a little time for fun!

Bye bye for now,
Lexi